Very difficult to talk about, however im lost because ive been with the same person for 10 years. Mixed emotions in many ways, without going into 10 years of detail. It started off casually,we dated,(left her man to be with me originally) she broke up with me, ended uo finding out she had sex with one of my closest friends ( for context, he was a thief, trouble of all kinds etc..) i wasnt great when i was younger either. None the less, me and him were no longer friends, she begged me to take her back then, i did. Took care of her and her son who was 1 in my own place shorlty after getting together, did everything for her etc... time goes by, shes flirting and sexting other people,caught her, should have left her then i dont know why i didnt... worked through some things. Made a mistake myself, started talking to a coworker because i felt my needs were not being met, which i had voiced to her planty of times beforehand, nothing sexual, not even a kiss, just emotional relationship. I tolf her the truth when i found out she was pregnant, hard recovery for a year about.. thought things were getting better, we moved to a bigger place, had our son, and my step son, the first 1 when we met.. however after about the 8th year of being together i discovered she had another emotional affair with someone over a year, then she addmitted to having sex with him, after i already found out everything after a year of her denying it and lying to me.. still with her after all this time, not because i want to be, but im lost, i feel she will never change. There is plenty more to this i just dont know how to fit it all in. Im deeply devasted in many ways and just dont know what im even doing atthis point, i just wanted to be loved by someone who i thought would love me back the same, it seems it will never be. Sorryfor the long post, i really dont know what to say.
